FDJustin

Yep, that's how I feel right now. Super excited, plenty unsure, and definitely a little worried.

For those of you who haven't looked at my promisary thread out of lack of interest, or not having enough speed, I'll catch you up real quick: I do a lot of procrastination. Terrible work ethic. But even so, I've been making progress the last month or two. Much of it was just organizing, but more recently it's been about making a concept video to explain the rules, test the market, and present on kickstarter.

You know, it'll probably be at least another month before this current step is fully rolled out, but even so it feels like it's right here, right now. I just need to ramble some, to stop pacing back and forth like an expectant father.

I literally went form calm, lazy, whatever to how I am now the moment I closed my cheesy littler slide. I don't know if it's because I didn't realize that it signals the beginning of the end of the dream, or if it's actually a state I subconsciously knew was coming and maybe even tried to avoid. But either way, I wasn't expecting it. I would have been winding down to go to bed right now, but I won't be sleeping for a while!

So in the coming months we'll know how this can pan out. We'll see if there's interest, or if my little sister is right and no one will want to play!

But I'm not toooo worried if it turns out that it's set for failure from the start. Sure, it would be immensely disappointing. I might even have to bite back tears if it were that overwhelmingly fail. But I'd get over it, because...
I have another idea that's collecting dust, and idea I keep wanting to pull out because I get teased with hints at the success it could be having this very day. You'll get to know that idea in the future, whether this one succeeds or not.
After that, another game that's a little more in line with todays' ideal of a good MMO, but with a twist on what I like.
After that, an idea that would be blatantly stolen from my cousin. This one is all about a physical good, and I really should get him to work with me on patenting it.

I'm not really trying to convince you guys, I'm convincing myself that if I really have failed with this project, it only means I know I need to focus on other opportunities.


So yeah, not sure if I mentioned it, but this blog post is entirely to vent and calm down. It's done a pretty good job actually.